They Come To Me

in a hotel room
at lunchtime
by the light of the moon
or as the sun rises
you live in my town
or up in the city
whether i come to you
or you come to me

a mess in need
you've come for one thing
each of you
have the same in mind
you all come to me
under a guise of seduction
and the thrill of the forbidden
but in me a different fulfillment
you each will find

with your boss on your back
your fading love affair
your marriage that lacks
with money to burn
or money you saved
you buy what you want
but more than you realize
is what you get back

i see you for you
for the beauty and pain
you bring to the room
for the sensual nature
the passion that exists
the animalistic urges you release
deep within you that
you want to see again

you come clean and fresh
and eager to please
you meet an angel
who speaks on your level
who worships you entirely
who wishes only to ease your deepest sorrows
looking up at you
from her knees

when you leave my side
you feel a bit more natural
a little more alive
a lot more relaxed
okay with who you are inside
you remember you are loved
you have fulfilled a long awaited dream
we both know that you will be back

so many people look down their nose
at the supposed immorality of what i do
the service i provide considered dirty
people see what they want
and they see me as lewd
that's why they miss the underlying truth
that i offer much more than an affair
something more lasting than a brief interlude

i am an escort, a professional date
for the rich or the poor, the small or the great
large or small, there is beauty in all
i see it in every one of you
as real and honest as any girl gets
i want to lift your shoulders, your eyes,
your spirits, your pride
and the corners of your lips

Dark Sun Rising

There is a dark sun on my horizon

Rising to illuminate the journey through my dark places
                       on my knees
                                   to guide me to the thorns
I await my own dark surrender with pounding heart...
                                                                      and trembling anticipation


There is a dark sun on my horizon

Burn away my desire for anything that is not of you
                         it honors me
                                  to be more of you and less of me
As a new power dawns for me, I am undone...
                                                                      in the light of the Dark Sun

Your birthday

Today is the fifty-eighth anniversary 

of your first day on earth 

and we will celebrate your birth

without you

I will cook your favorite meal

and mom will cook your favorite dessert.

No matter how hard I try

I cannot get past the hurt.

I miss you.

Today is your birthday

and we will honor you by celebrating on your behalf.

You taught me so much

how not to lie,

the importance of integrity,

the beauty of just being myself.

Because of you

I exist.

When I watched you die

I knew that I would no longer be who I once was

Your friends looked at me like I was pieces of you--unbelievable but true.

Sitting in the dark

I saw the disappearance of your final spark

Watched your last breath leave your chest

as you settled into your eternal rest.

You taught me how to be strong

to accept nothing less than the best

you believed in me.

On your last day

you told me how much you loved me, that i was an inspiring human being

and I knew that you were proud of me for the person I turned out to be.

You were ready to leave and so we set you free

we told you it was alright to go, that we would be okay

and maybe someday

I won't miss you so much.

But today, when we celebrate for the first time without you

I only know that I am not now who I was before.

And I miss you.

Like a drug

Somehow You got under my skin

into my blood you slid like a drug

flowing through my veins with every beat of my heart.

Taking possession of my body 

You slid into my mind

transcending space and time

creating...O/our place.

Cum on in

take a walk inside my head

as i tread lightly in the footsteps of the dead.

You walked through the hallways of my mind,
found that deep dark trunk and locked my free will inside
the most well guarded place You could ever find.

And now You flow through my veins like a drug,

Walk through my dreams like some kind of fiend

poke around in my brain opening doors and creating entirely new floors.

You made me your whore

placed me at your feet

begging

Master please

no longer the tease

just a queen forever on her knees.